Right, the blood tests.

It turns out that my B12 levels were very low but not deficient. This explains why some of those old feelings were coming back.

I added B12 injections to my routine. I did a bit of googling about what this might mean for me long term. It turns out that alcohol can actually stop your body from absorbing B12. I had the instant thought that perhaps my drinking had contributed to this situation.

The counsellor had also made contact. My first b12 injection coincided with my first counselling session.

The counsellor was actually a registered psychologist, therapist and addiction specialist. I had found the right person.

Together we talked about what’s going on in my life, my increasing short temper with Reuben and Nina and my drinking. I’d already made a decision to stop drinking while I was having the injections. I’ll be alcohol free for at least a year, probably permanently. I’m not ready to admit that I had a problem. I will admit to being well on the way to having a problem. Drinking every day is not healthy. Drinking 2 – 4 large glasses every day is certainly an indicator of a problem.

She helped me with some techniques for self talk, relaxation breathing and even gave me a guided meditation to do at home. We talked about exercise and how that would help my over all mood and be good for my physical health.

So in a way the first Doctor was right, mindfulness and exercise does go a long way to improving your mental health.

BUT

I needed to be in the right frame of mind to see this.

The effects of the citalopram, giving up alcohol, the B12 injections and the therapy certainly gave me that opportunity.

I finished counselling at the end of the first school term of the year.

I’m feeling better and doing the best I can to make sure I’m putting these tools I have to the best possible use.

Now its up to ME to carry on.

Not long after term 2 started I saw an advertisement for a Womens wellness course at the local family centre. It’s a 5 week course, and takes place every Monday morning. I’ve just completed week 3 and it’s been like an extension of the counselling. Best of all its free.

The other question I’ve had in the back of my mind is where to from here?

Find out what’s next in another post coming soon.